(Reviving this from the drafts so I can post my other things. My perfectionism wants things in order lol)
Something on my mind these past few days is the reality of following Jesus. It is not pretty. It is not easy. It is not comfortable. It is messy. It is radical. I am reminded again and again in different seasons that this life is not for us to live in comfortability. We are being sanctified and in order for this change and pruning to occur, we must be willing to step out into what might scare us. We, like David facing Goliath, must face what might completely and totally scare us. This is often the places where I know, God is going to do something in me and in the people around me. Knowing that God is in the difficult places, brings smile to my face. A supernatural joy fills me up when pain surrounds me because I know that in pain, God resides. Do not brush past the difficulty of your calling.
The world tells us to run from what scares us, but as believers we know that is where we must run. I am entering a season where I often find myself wanting to run, but my spirit is telling me to move towards it, to press into it. Have you ever experienced that before? It is a crazy experience to deeply know that you are where you’re supposed to be, yet also be fully aware that your flesh is fighting. For me this looks like anxiety and doubt.
From experience and from scripture I see God uses us in the places where we want to run. Usually this is because He has equipped us with exactly what we need. I heard it put once in this question: “What do you burn for?” The speaker carried on to say “That is where the enemy will attack you the most.” For me, I burn for community, connection, relationships, and this is where I am attacked the most. Anxiety about my interactions and my relationships plague me. How “funny” that my job is all about relationships. The enemy will not win and he won’t win in your life either. Look around you. Where is the place that you are most using your gifts? Do you feel push back in this area? What part of your flesh is keeping you from jumping all in? From enjoying the opportunities and gifts God has given you?
In the fire, God is refining. How incredible that He is slowly making me like Him. Have grace for yourself. You are being sanctified.
You are worth more than many sparrows,
Katie
